I had genetic counseling/testing yesterday. That was pretty stressful. The women I met with was named Joy, and she did not live up to her name. I get that she has to give you all this bad news but a little compassion or something would have been nice. Also, I didn't know all of my or Brenton's genetic history so I think she was a little upset about that because I truly believes she wants to know in hopes she can give you bad news! She was just on autopilot when giving information. I was already very stressed about this test and she wasn't really helping with the nerves.

After I was done with her, I had to get an ultrasound done. Wow! I still can't believe I have a child growing inside of me. I saw the little heartbeat go about a 100 miles a minute, and saw its little arm. It was quite active which at times made it difficult for the ultrasound person to get a good picture (she did though). I figure it was active because it was lunch time and it is sick of Mexican food! (I've been living off of burritos and mashed potatoes and gravy.) With the ultrasound they were looking at the neck and the fluid behind it to see if the baby had down syndrome. The doctor said everything looked really good! I still have to get my blood work back but I do feel as if some of this stress has been lifted off of me. You try to be positive and think I'm sure everything is going to be fine, and I did believe that but then doubt starts creeping up and then all the positive thoughts go away.

My next appointment is January 28th and I'll get a full physical and hear the baby's heartbeat.